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Friday Five 10 Jan 2025
10 Jan 2025 09:51 am1. If you could go back and relive one moment or day from your life, without changing anything, what would you re-experience?
I miss sex so much and it's not realistic to think it will happen for me again (yay double invisibility of energy-impairment disability and being a middle-aged woman), so that. Early days of a relationship too, before the other person understood what a drag my health limitations are. Ironic eh that if I mention anything arising from my AWOL libido, it's taken as if it were criticism of theirs, or that I'm a prude, or whatever, when the truth is no, I really value a healthy sex life and understand how important it is to mental health.
2. If you could witness a moment in history, again without changing anything, what would you want to see?
These days I'd like to experience hope and joy again, so somewhere celebrating significant equalities legislation. Though not in the U.S. as they're showing how fragile this all can be and the pain of that, the loss of hope, is so hard to bear.
3. If you could talk to a younger version of yourself, what age would you visit and what message would you give?
The week after the ex first hit me. Pack your bag and get to a women's shelter. Then prioritise finding good housing over anything else, some place where you'll be content to live out the rest of your life.
4. If you could choose one moment that would be guaranteed to happen in your future, what would it be and when would it happen?
This is too cruel. I don't know, someone takes pity on me and adopts me like they might take in a senior cat who shows up at their door?
5. Pretend you left a time capsule for yourself 5, 10, 15, 20 or more years ago. You just opened it. What three things from your past are you now holding and what age were you when you buried them?
A five-page paper I spent a week writing because I loved the subject so much, staying up until 4 in the morning at the computer centre with books of West African art used in divination and other rituals. Best week of my life.
Some of my writing for my Buddhist studies classes too. I did some really creative work for that.
Maybe some of my later writing, mostly online, though that came after I had lost the uni papers.
I miss sex so much and it's not realistic to think it will happen for me again (yay double invisibility of energy-impairment disability and being a middle-aged woman), so that. Early days of a relationship too, before the other person understood what a drag my health limitations are. Ironic eh that if I mention anything arising from my AWOL libido, it's taken as if it were criticism of theirs, or that I'm a prude, or whatever, when the truth is no, I really value a healthy sex life and understand how important it is to mental health.
2. If you could witness a moment in history, again without changing anything, what would you want to see?
These days I'd like to experience hope and joy again, so somewhere celebrating significant equalities legislation. Though not in the U.S. as they're showing how fragile this all can be and the pain of that, the loss of hope, is so hard to bear.
3. If you could talk to a younger version of yourself, what age would you visit and what message would you give?
The week after the ex first hit me. Pack your bag and get to a women's shelter. Then prioritise finding good housing over anything else, some place where you'll be content to live out the rest of your life.
4. If you could choose one moment that would be guaranteed to happen in your future, what would it be and when would it happen?
This is too cruel. I don't know, someone takes pity on me and adopts me like they might take in a senior cat who shows up at their door?
5. Pretend you left a time capsule for yourself 5, 10, 15, 20 or more years ago. You just opened it. What three things from your past are you now holding and what age were you when you buried them?
A five-page paper I spent a week writing because I loved the subject so much, staying up until 4 in the morning at the computer centre with books of West African art used in divination and other rituals. Best week of my life.
Some of my writing for my Buddhist studies classes too. I did some really creative work for that.
Maybe some of my later writing, mostly online, though that came after I had lost the uni papers.
