No one tells you that you will grieve

[elisheva_m]

"No one tells you that you will grieve when you become disabled or chronically ill. It's expected when a loved one dies but you don't expect it when you experience chronic illness or disability. "The process is the same. The feelings are the same. The only difference is that instead of a loved one dying, it's like you've died. Your life, your hopes, your dreams, your plans. Who you were and who you wanted to be. Everything. All forever changed. "You break your own heart over and over again because you have hope of a restored body and life. "It's like you're dead but still alive. You're a ghost in your own fucking life. You are haunted by your old self, your old life, your former health, and everything you've lost." © Micki D, 2016 https:// facebook dot com/MickiDPoetry/ © MickiDPoetry

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There are still days when I cry for no apparent reason, or reasons unconnected to whatever has given me enough oxytocin to cry, but at least now I understand what's going on. I was never really healthy though, I never stood a chance. Just enough to try over and over again until I lost even that.

Wear your masks. Please. Every covid infection is Russian roulette that you'll end up with this kind of shadow existence for your life. Value what you have enough to hold onto it.

Please.